How astutely my piano teacher observes, "Yuan, you only put effort into the things you care about." As if this is some sort of sickness.
How else should I be?
She talks about how anything that I find hard to overcome seems to be impossible for me to tackle because of some kind of mental roadblock I have. It's like she is noticing what countless teachers have told me growing up.
That I have so much potential.
If only I just tried. If only I cared.
How do I make myself work for something that I don't care about? Does that mean I just care about everything?
Because I figure, I should probably just spread my care into all of the important things. But what are the things from which I take my already given care? What do I even care about?
Something about all of this reminds me of my foster mom's, Laura's, notion of character. The things we do regardless of how we feel. Our actions that reveal our maturity, that reveal the parts of who we are that never change.
It's tough, man.
How do I grow more into who I need to be? Who is it that I need to be?
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in regards to music, im totally the same way. I only practiced the things I liked. I've been getting the same speech my whole life too, trust me. The hard part is not forcing yourself to practice the things you don't like, but to find the good in the things that you don't like, so you can practice them too without wanting to just quit.
i guess that applies to other stuff too haha.
my teacher has said though, that it's really important to push through the pieces that we don't initially like. because when we learn to find intitially boring things interesting, it makes our love for them that much longer lasting.
I don't know. what do you think?
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