Everyday for this past week I have decided to intentionally start and end my days with talking to God. for fellow Christians, lingo like this is ordinary. nothing special. But for those non-God fearin' folks, lingo like that is kinda weird.
I am aware of that. And I am still putting it on the internet.
The reason why I wouldn't do this before is because I'd wake up in the morning, all groggy and then I'd think for a few moments, listening to the French CBC station on my radio, then hop up, open my laptop, check the weather and then be on with the rest of my morning routine. I'd talk to God if I needed to, or something.
I would pray more at night. I would be falling asleep, lately with candles (dangerous!), and maybe thank God for some nice things in my life, or some nice conversations.
I'd say about half of the time lately, though, I would maybe not even talk to God. I generally live life pretty intensely, so it's like, I would build up my need to pray. Then, every now and then it'd all come gushing out, tears and all, me, in my room alone, talking to the air, talking to the silence, finding solace and comfort in having my spoken thoughts lead me down a rabbit-trail of my search for unselfishness, wisdom, and goodness.
that's okay, too.
but I've been experimenting lately, intentionally talking to God in the morning, thanking him for the day, asking him to fill me with patience, to see beauty in everything around me.
it changes my days. Because sometimes I go to class and when there's a kid in my violin class who doesn't learn the bowing as fast as me and wants to share my music and my stand, well, I can get a little impatient.
I was on the bus the other day and I looked around at people I'd never seen before and would most likely never see again. I looked at specific people and there was a really interesting looking girl and I thought, "wow, she is beautiful." Then, I looked at a guy yawning and I thought similar thoughts about him. I looked around and I saw beauty in the strangers that surrounded me. My heart started to beat a little faster, and I felt it.
The moment left me soon after, of course. But it's striking, how it changes my days.
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You have such a keen eye for seeing the beauty around you, Yuan. Such a gift!
Talking to God in the morning rules. It makes my day so much better when I say "God, let your will be done in my life today. Use me for your glory!"
God makes me smile ;)
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