(in)finite ideas

I have a lot of ideas. When I read things and see things and talk about things, my mind just comes up with ideas. Sometimes it feels like my mind has too many ideas for itself. I get overwhelmed with all of the things that I want to see happen, with the things that I can imagine! Sometimes - quite often, actually - it's really exciting to have so many ideas.

I'm getting back into the groove of ideas. I've been in a phase this last while of my life where ideas haven't been popping up everywhere. I've been a bit afraid of them, or haven't had external inspirations to provoke my natural tendency towards ideas.


But I'm ready.


But I'm even more excited for what's to come beyond my own lofty imaginings and ideals.



My pal Fiona and I were talking the other night, and, between the two of us, we inspire each other, having presumed and presupposed the existence of a God who has a plan and a "will" for our lives. The same idea of a God presented in Christian, Muslim and Jewish faiths - a God who has created humans for a purpose, who knows us intimately and deeply; a God who is the author of romance, who, for all of our ideas, has three million (or infinitely) more; a God who is the source of all joy, of all love, of all creativity. It's so inspiring, it's so beyond us, it's amazing.

Anyway, one thing she said to me really stuck with me, being an ideas-girl and all. In speaking of God's will for our lives - his desire, what he would like to see happen for our lives, having designed us and made us - she said that one way we discern whether or not it is from God is if it is something that we wouldn't think up ourselves.

She was stating that we can often know if occurrences and opportunities in our lives are from God if they are something we wouldn't have thought up. In all of our ideas, perhaps it would've been the last thing we expected.

This doesn't mean that God just surprises us just for the sake of it, I don't think. What this means, I think, is that it's a wake-up call to the fact that if this presumed God does know all, then his ways are inherently higher than ours. It's like that analogy of a father, I guess. That as children sometimes we want that cookie from the cookie jar, when our "heavenly Father" says to us, "nope, not yet, we're having dinner in an hour and a half." And we had no idea or had forgotten about dinner until he told us.


It's perspective.

The big picture!


What a relief that even in all of my ideas there is something more. Even in all of my ideas I will constantly be surprised and be humbled by the fact that I don't know everything, that I couldn't just think of it myself.