teachnology

well. this is it.


i've started my own blog. i did not think i would ever, ever do this.


i'd search for stuff on google, see people's blogs, and just not understand how people could use something as public as a blog as a personal journal. Spilling their guts on the internet. talking about stuff no one cares about. (well ... you know, not no one.)

I was watching some late night show over the holidays and this American politician came on and was promoting this book she had written on how to write an amazing blog. she talked about how to get lots of people to read your blog and the importance of not having a huge filter between the thoughts in your head and what you're writing down.

writing spontaneous thoughts.

she had some sort of eastern European accent and thought it was awful nice to be able to express herself and not have people judge her by her accent.

i've realized that as technology changes it changes communication in so many ways. people who talk to me on a regular basis definitely know how i feel about technology. i'm trying to be old-fashioned as long as humanly possible. i talk about it at least. but as much as i'm trying to rebel against the evolution of technology and its impact on day-to-day communication, i'm realizing i simply can't.

when i first got myspace and started creating my identity in a way that should leave people with a sense of knowing me, (letting them know how cool my taste in music is, how cool my taste in books and movies are, choosing the right pictures) but also be interestingly enigmatic enough to keep people wanting more, i realized my brain started thinking in myspace.

you know that little space to the right of your myspace picture that allowed you to write some sort of quip or anecdote? i started thinking like that.
i started to experience life and have moments where i'd just think of some weird sentence, hear some music lyrics, and feel the intense desire to type it in there. i needed to express myself.

since i discovered facebook, you can only imagine what happened. i'm sure you've experienced it.

you take pictures mainly for facebook. you hear your friends say funny things and want to write them in your 'favorite quotes'. you do things and think about what you'd type in your facebook status. again, you think of all the movies, music and books you like and write them in so that all can see who you REALLY are.

the scary thing is people knowing things about you that you never tell them in person. is it just me or is that a little unnatural?


i'm embracing all of this technology with repulsion, yet a sense of knowing there's nothing i can really do but evolve myself, and take advantage of the positive things technology brings.


i knew it was time to start a blog when i started thinking in blog posts.


my main motivation is:
a) to express myself. i have so many thoughts and ideas in my head i need to get them out.
a.1) i want a discourse. i want people to read my blog. not gonna lie. isn't that the point? i want people to respond (hopefully in person) to what i write here.

i have a disclaimer:
a lot of the things i say will involve things of a spiritual nature. i love god. i am a christian. i am growing so much still, and maturing still.

i will write my struggles, write the things i'm wrestling with, because calling myself a christian doesn't mean i have it all figured out. which is a beautiful thing.



CONGRATULATIONS to you if you have made it this far. i'm a (self-professed) rambler, so bare with me.

let's do this.