it was a canon sd 750, though, and i remember saving up a lot for it a few years ago. i wanna update my stuff here but i have no new pics. at least, my brother said he would give me his nice SLR -- but it's not digital! which means i'll be printing REAL pictures.
crazy.
on another note, it's quite cold here in london, but i am so so excited for easter. i've also been practicing piano for hours a day - until i can't stand it, because my jury is coming up and i would love to do well on it. i'm playing some neat pieces. it's amazing, actually. i've been playing piano for ten years but am only really now coming into an understanding of how to listen to myself and the sounds i am making. i learned to just see music as notes - somehow i just got to the point where i was blind to all of the directions like rhythm and dynamics and everything.
my flute teacher a little while ago was telling us about this book she was reading. i forget the name of it. it was this story of this person (a woman, i think) who was a very successful concert pianist, but eventually just stopped playing completely because she found that everything became automatic. she was playing beautifully, i'm sure, but from the sounds of it, not really interacting with the music. i think i've been able to relate to that. you dont' stop to think about the relationship between the notes, or the motivation of the composer. anything that becomes stale like that needs a renewal.
i guess her (and my) success story is where something changes - in my case, getting a teacher able to encourage me to think independently - and you begin to actually interact with the music. it's so cool.
it takes effort, though. i've been like, summing up after i play, what i accomplished during each practice sesh. so if you walk by a practice room that i happen to be in, and you see me talking to myself, then i'm probably doing that. or praying.
oh man! there's so many parallels here for anything, but of course, spiritual stuff comes to mind. when anything becomes mindless, then it probably isn't as challenging. if you're not wrestling with it and asking yourself why you're doing it, what makes you come back to this place again and again, then it may come to not mean as much.
haha, wise words from yuan b.
oh, yeah, well i found a room where the sun was setting today, and here's a pic. thank goodness for photobooth.
